thank God for

• man. I haven’t been on the computer at all this week. Is there a correlation with the fact that my parents are on a trip, gone and away from me? Do I use the internet to escape my own house. I find myself sitting downstairs this whole week, not in my room staring at the white screen. Honestly enjoying the magnificence and silence of the crib that I am so blessed to be under the roof of.
• week 1 of spring classes over, okay. I ~~like~~ sociology, and I put that in squigs as to not jinx it; I greatly dislike my psych prof, what can you do. I like the txtbook though.
• I’m sort of kind of obsessed in love with my new ink. Fucking stay humble.This may sound utterly fake as shit, but realistically I could care less, because every time I look at something now, I am instantly reminded to be thankful because of that little pinch in my leg. I’m beginning to see things differently. Honestly, like everything. I think this is appropriated with a coming of age thing too though, my 20th birthday is in less than a month. I feel them synapses fusing. It’s peeling like a fucker right now, pictures soon as it heals, proms :)
• the weather has been really great here. Big positive.
• there are still 100+ things to improve on, especially getting back on the losing weigh train. I….I am still having trouble. We’ll see, unfortunately. I have no strength. It’s shit.
• it is mother’s day tomorrow, and mine is another country. I really do appreciate every single thing she has ever done for me, amongst everything I have said/done in the past. We had a shit couple of years when I was a teenager, surely 95% of it was my fault. But damn, thank you for being my mum. I wouldn’t be alive without you. 
• I think I’ll go buy a bike tomorrow. Maybe that’s how I’ll get my exercise? Huh.
• I wonder what you’re doing at this very moment. And I think I will wonder all summer to be completely honest with myself. When I get hooked, I get hooked man. CR33P. Goddamn, if I see you next year. If I am SO FORTUITOUS………… I still can’t explain how I beautiful I think this mofo is you guys. I just don’t understand. Unfathomable. But boy, do I still want him and all the consequences that come with.